‘Post Traumatic’ EP by Mike Shinoda

Place to Start

I don’t have a leg to stand on

Spinning like a whirlwind nothing to land on

Came so far never thought it’d be done now

Stuck in a holding pattern waiting to come down

Did somebody else define me

Can I put the past behind me

Do I even have a decision

Feeling like I’m living in a story already written

Am I part of a vision / made by somebody else

Pointing fingers at villains but I’m the villain myself

Or am I out of conviction with no wind in the sail

Too focused on the end and simply ready to fail

Cause I’m tired of the fear that I can’t control this

I’m tired of feeling like every next step’s hopeless

I’m tired of being scared what I build might break apart

I don’t want to know the end, all I want is a place to start

 

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Over Again

Sometimes / sometimes you don’t say goodbye once

You say goodbye over and over and over again

Over and over and over again

Sometimes / sometimes you don’t say goodbye once

You say goodbye over and over and over again

Over and over and over again

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It was a month since he passed / maybe less

And no one knew what to do / we were such a mess

We were texting / we were calling / we were checking in

We said we ought to play a show in honor of our friend

Well now that show’s finally here / it’s tonight

Supposed to go / to the bowl / get on stage / dim the lights

With our friends / and our family / in his name / celebrate

There’s no way that I’ll be ready to get back up on that stage

Can’t remember if I’ve cancelled any show

But I think about what I’m supposed to do and I don’t know

Cause I think about not doing it the same way as before

And it makes me wanna puke my fucking guts out on the floor

We rehearsed it for a month / I’m not worried about the set

I get tackled by the grief at times that I would least expect

I know what I should be doing when I’m singing but instead

We’ll be playing through a song and I’d remember in my head

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Sometimes / sometimes you don’t say goodbye once

You say goodbye over and over and over again

Over and over and over again

Sometimes / sometimes you don’t say goodbye once

You say goodbye over and over and over again

Over and over and over again

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What (are) they saying, I’m not raw?

What the fuck you take me for?

All the sudden you hear what I’ve said a hundred ways before?

I been pushed, I been trapped

Drug myself through hell and back and

Fallen flat and had the balls to start it all again from scratch

How do you feel / how you doing / how’d the show go?

Am I insane to say the truth is that I don’t know

My body aches heads spinning this is all wrong

I almost lost it in middle of a couple songs

And everybody that I talk to is like, “wow Must be really hard to figure out what to do now”

Well thank you genius / you think it’ll be a challenge

Only my life’s work hanging in the fucking balance

And all I wanted was to get a little bit of closure

And every step I took I looked and wasn’t any closer

Cause sometimes when you say goodbye yeah you say it

Over and over and over and over

 

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Watching As I Fall

Excuse me while I kiss the sky

Sing a song of sixpence / pocket full of lies

Thinking I’m OK but they’re saying otherwise

Tell me how I look but can’t look me in the eyes

Watching as I say this and then I do that

Telling them the old words but in a new rap

Then I change my mind up and make them lose track

Shit I’m inconsistent I thought you knew that

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Maybe I should be more grateful

That I had to watch it all come undone

Holding so tight to the edge is painful

But I can’t ignore it I know

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They’re watching as I fall / they’re staring as I go

I gave until my soul hurt / and never told them so

They’re watching as I fall / to somewhere down below

But maybe I’m just falling / to get somewhere they won’t

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Excuse me while I sympathize

Singing with the fat lady tell me what’s the time

You know what it is not afraid to cross the line

Nothing is forever don’t be mad at the design

Ask me if I can / I say I don’t know

And honestly I buy that I can sound cold

Still upset from shit that’s 15 years old

I don’t know what it takes to make me let go

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Maybe I should be more grateful

That I had to watch it all come undone

Holding so tight to the edge is painful

But can’t ignore it I know

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They’re watching as I fall / they’re staring as I go

I gave until my soul hurt / and never told them so

They’re watching as I fall / to somewhere down below

But maybe I’m just falling / to get somewhere they won’t

 

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Thank You Mike.

We Love You.